"This kind of certainty comes but once in a lifetime."

Today.. I mourning again over you... People maybe doesnt understand why I'm so mouring about... We've been know each other only for a month.. but that really feels like a lifetime... The world just stop and roll over again.. again .. again... on those days of you and me....

Remember when I said that I knew I will be with you at the end? Somehow I knew it, I just feel it ever since I saw you for the first time... And Im end up with an understanding that all I’ve ever done in my life is making my way there to you.... be there on your last days in life... and knew that this kind of certainty comes but once in a lifetime, no matter how many lifes you had..

I'm so grateful to spend those days, those conversation, those kisses and hugs, those love, those feeling that we had before... And Im mourning now because I just simply miss you... 

I love you my Libra...

Seharusnya

Aku pulang untukmu
Seperti janji yang kuucap sebelumnya

Seharusnya
Kau tak cepat pergi
Seperti yang kau ikrar padaku, padanya

Seharusnya
Kutak perlu menahan rindu ini
Karna ada kau jika kau tak pergi

Seharusnya
Jika harus ada yang pergi
Maka Akulah dia..

Karna jujur kumembatin
Bahwa Ku akan pergi
Dari kau dan dia yang sudah terjalin..
Jauh... sebelum kau pergi..


"Ayah, entah mengapa rasa kehilanganmu semakin besar.. Kau rayakan hari ini jugakah disana?"

Intersection..

I saw the movie last night... I have seen it few years ago actually... My Gosh... I think what happened to me is the same with Olivia Marshak... Baby... I Miss you....

Melukismu

Sayang...

Dalam terang suluh..

Aku coba melukismu...

Jelas kulihat bayangmu..

Di pelupuk mataku

Di depan mata hatiku...

Sayang...

lekuk senyummu..

hangat sinar matamu..

tegas tulang wajahmu

gurat ketampananmu..

Melayang indah di anganku...

Namun jari ini

Tak mampu menggores..

Pun menangkap pesonamu...

Eloknya dirimu..

Rapuhkan penaku ..

Biar Sang Kekal melukismu

Merajah pati hatiku

dengan lukisan wajahmu

Mimpi tentang kamu dan dia

Semalam kubermimpi tentangmu...

Kau ajak aku pergi... 

Menyusuri hari terakhirmu...

Berdua..

Kau ajak aku lihat

Tubuhmu terbaring lemah

Kulihat kau bernafas... menunggu...

Tak paham mengapa kuharus lihat ini...

kau berkata "Harusnya kita bertemu"

kujawab "Tapi kau tak mengamini"

Ujarmu  "Kau bilang yang terakhir kali "

kumenangis " Dan kau kabulkan itu"

Lalu kau ajak aku pergi...

Entah kemana...

Berdua... berdampingan...

dalam diam...

Aku bilang " Aku rindu kau "

Kau diam

Aku bilang " Kau minta aku menunggumu"

Kau diam

Aku bilang "Maafkan aku sebab..."

"Kubilang yang terakhir karna kutahu kau baik2 saja"

"Kubilang yang terakhir karna banyak hati kan terluka"

"Kubilang yang terakhir karna ini adalah karmaku"

"Kubilang yang terakhir karna hadirku adalah sakitmu"

Dan kau hanya menatapku...

Mengusap airmata ku...

Menggelengkan kepalamu

tak sepotong katapun terucap..

Lirih kubisikkan "Aku cinta kau"

tiba-tiba kau hilang

kucari kau

yang kutemu Puanmu...

dia berjalan disampingku...

Puanmu bilang "kita jenguk dia"

Kuhanya mengangguk

Puanmu berkata " Aku cinta dia.."

Dan kubilang "Dia pun mencintaimu.."

ada binar di matanya...

ku tak sanggup menatap mata itu...

tertunduk, kulanjutkan..

"Dia beruntung memilikimu"...

dan kuberhenti.. 

dan melangkah pergi darinya.

The Photo Album

I opened our photo album..

And I couldnt believe it..

That you were gone..

I meant forever...

I just still cant belive it..

Those pics just like taken few minutes ago...

I still hear our laugh...

I still feel your hands touching me...

I couldnt belive that..

It seems happen seconds ago...

So I throw this photo album out of my sight..

I shouldnt opened it...  Not now... Im still dreaming that you only go for a while...

Sayangku

I'm getting closer to you...

Wait for me...

Slow down...

Im comming home too... 

Miss you...

Ayah, kangen deh... Knp akhir2 ini aku ngerasa kamu ada di deketku ya...? Hmmm...

Aku inget terakhir kita bersama... that excellent night... Wondering what people thought when they saw us ya... Mungkin mereka bilang .. pasangan aneh... We walk along together sambil becanda dan tertawa2... Inget ga kamu mau make helm ke dalam gedung... Trus aku bilang.. jauh2 deh sana... eh kamu malah meluk aku.. hihihihihih... Remember we talk through the night under the moonlight, watching the wave, and enjoy the air... Inget kita saling takut menakuti... dan tertawa terbahak2 saat yg lainnya benar2 ketakutan?

We watch Little miss Sunshine... even we didnt watch the whole movie (too many interuption lol) but we loved that one? Inget kita membicarakan tentang masa depan... Inget ketika kita saling berpisah.. we hold each other...

I remember you called me only seconds away .... I remember all your moves... remember every single second we spent... I remember I deeply fall in to you... that touch.. those kisses.. those hugs... so unforgetable...

And now... I feel that you were around me... I see you everywhere... When I look at the full moon, when I stare at the sky... I see you... I see that gorgeous smile... AND I SO DAMN MISS YOU!!

Ayaaahh... biasanya aku akan berlari padamu saat aku merindukanmu... atau segera menelponmu jika cinta ini tak terbendung... Walau sekarang aku tak bisa melakukan itu lagi... Aku mau bilang bahwa aku sayang kamu.... Terima kasih sayang untuk kenangan yang indah... Temanku berkata bahwa aku sudah cukup mendapatkan banyak cinta darimu... sekarang saatnya untuk melangkah lagi....

Ayah... we suppose to be a great couple didnt we? We will someday... I knew that... I love you sweety....

Your Little miss Sunshine...

I want my life like yours

Moonlight... do you know that alot of people love you? I saw it .. even I feel it.. I want to have that such of life too... It was beautiful... 

So from now on.. I want everybody love me... Like I love them... I will spread this love to everybody near me... even my enemy..  So if one day I passed away (we'll be together again) they will shower me with wishes and love too...

Now I know why God planned these for me... So I could learn from you... and I did.. So thank you baby for shared the lessons with me.. For letting me know how to love people... 

I got enough love I knew... but I will stay hungry for it... I will keep this huge love and share it with others while continuing my Journey... 

Baby.. please guide me... and warn me if someday I forget about this...

I love you smelly muach Ayah....

Afternoon Gorgeous

Life is harder without you baby.. I have to face that... I wish you were here with me... 

Oh honey.... My only happiness is remembering you now... 

I miss you so...

Ayahhh....

Bubun kangeeeennn ....

Bumi jugaaaa....

Tunggu kami yaa.... 

We love youuu....

Daylight

Good Morning Daylight...

How's the night goin?

Sorry not to kiss you good night...

So messed up yesterday...

Didnt have a guts to stare you...

Its cloudy upthere..

Are you sad?

I promise you not to cry over you anymore

No more cry... As you ask me to...

I miss you as much as I love you...

I could walk this new path if you let me breath you

You're my Air, my source of life

Through the road where you no longer there..

Wait for me at the end..

Sayaaang, aku kangeeenn bangeettttttttt.....

Sunshine

Good Morning...
Im Sorry...
I will take care the mess...
Let it be my indulgence..
Just stay there..
And enjoy the ride Sunshine...

I'll give them your regards

Love you always my sunshine...

Better than Ever

Did I tell you that I will tattoed you in my heart?

Did I?

Now can you see it?

Did I tell you that I got to be with you till the end of my life?

Did I?

Now can you feel it?

Have I tell you that you've changed me better somehow ?

Haven't I?

I proof it to you, I am a better person because of you...

Even they said you no good for me...

Even they said its wasting time...

Even they asked how far can I go...

Even they thought that I just play around...

Even they thought that I didnt learn my lesson...

I proof it to you, this is my Vow to you...

I AM BETTER THAN EVER!!!

Never Alone

I feel you in the morning
When at first I awake
Your thought is with me
With each decision I make

You'd been around forever
Since the first breath I took
Now I have to go on alone
But for love, I need not look

Cause by what you bestowed
In our short time together
Will last in my heart
Forever and ever

Although you've left
And now walk above
I'm never alone
I'm wrapped in your love

Enjoy now your long waited reward
Feel peace that your love continues on
What was taught to me, will be taught to mine
Cause you live on in me even after you've gone

by Rodney Belcher

Sunshine

Wakey wakey up Sunshine...

Its time for us to start a new life...

New chapter of our tetralogy story...

Its a warm morning, as warm as you and me...

Love you yesterday, today and forever...

Many kisses and hugs

Bumi's Mom

Good Night Moonlight

Like I always did... a good night kisses for you... Have a nice dream... Hold our story deep inside baby... Take a rest... I love you Moonlight... 

Mrs. W

The day I found you

I recall the day I found you... I was searching on the net... just look around.. no special intention.. then I saw your Pic... Gosh that smile... I remember my heart stop beating... Take a deep breath and look deeply... Then somethin wondering in my mind... "I got to know you"

You dont know how excited I am when you add me on you messenger list... then we chatt.. talk firstly about general things... Then we start to talk heart to heart... Gratefull to know that you feel the same way too.. that we somehow just well connected to each other.. even oceans take us away...

To know you kindly Sir.. really a precious moments.. I knew it from the very beginning.. that something special will happen to us.. I just Love you even before I meet you.. Somehow I thought that we are a pair maybe in other life... Maybe we are a reincarnation of a couple... I dont know.. I feel that I knew you hundreds years before... 

Do you know that I still remember every single minutes of our time? I did.. and it never happen to me before... I got the passion to get close to you now or never, I feel that I need to hurry before I ran out the time... 

And now.. the time is over... Now I know why I got that passion.. because we dont have much time to know each other better... to share the love.. share the life.. and build our own happy ending story.. At The end of our time bring me back to the day I saw you... and I keep remembering every single second of those good memories afterwards... And its make me smile..

Im glad that I choose you... Im happy to be with you on your last days in this world...  Now I knew why God create the story of you and me.. So I could cherish those days for the rest of my life... Be good now... take a rest... I will wake you up with kisses and hugs when Im comming home.. Cant wait to come home to you, Precious... 

Yours always, 

Mamanya Bumi..

I lost my excellent night

Tell me where I could find it...

A letter to Mr. W

Dear W,

This is our first day to be apart... Devastating yes I am... I miss you... like the ocean missed the beach... like the clouds missed the rain... I miss Us! If this is only a dream, please wake up... So I wont feel the pain... wake me up so I could see that gorgeous smile... wake me up so I could hug you day and night... 

Promise me dear to keep our love alive... Wait for me baby please wait for me because now Am counting the days to be with you... Even it will take hundreds years just wait for me... I am yours even since I saw you... God gave me several things to do here honey, I got to finish these first then I will return home to you... 

Promise me dear to be there when I look on the sky... Everytime I miss you... Just give me that smile like you always do... Everytime I feel lonely ...  just give me your hug through those moon light... Everytime Im falling down..  take care of me with the warmth of day light... 

Im so sorry sunshine its not my intention to hold you up... Its just this lost is killin me... I need to drop few more tears... so I could smile in the next morning... remembering good memories of you... remembering us... and keep all of those as a treasure of my lifetime... 

I love you Moonlight even death do us part.

Moonlight

Moonlight...

How bright you are...

As bright as memories of you

Shining on me... covers me..

Promise me Moonlight

to keep shining

bring me those lights

So I could fell you

Say hello to me...

Smile to me...

Took after me...

and wont let me go....

Moonlight...

Dont stop shining...

Im not what I am if you do...

A broken heart star

Welcome

This blog is dedicated to a very special person in my life... Created on the day when he start his journey to another life... Diciptakan untuk mengenang hidupnya... agar bisa bersyukur atas apa yang telah kami miliki lebih dari sekedar menangisi kepergiannya... I love you beib.. Hope this love will keep me stronger... until the day we meet again... in another life... Wait for me moonlight...